Experience:2955mg 2-Methylmethcathinone + 276mg Diacetylmorphine - Stimulant psychosis ego death nightmare
- Substance(s): 2-MMC / Diacetylmorphine
- Dose: 2955mg / 276mg
- Route of Administration: intravenous / (intravenous, vaporized)
Subject
- Age: Early 20s
- Sex: Female
- Height: 180 cm / 70 inches
- Weight: 70 kg / 154 lb
- Date: 06/2024
- Location: Germany
Background
Intravenous stimulant addict. Manic episodes. Self-harm tendencies.
Experience report
Gets up extreamly messed up from last bindge at 17 o'clock
Takes 3 cleanup shoots, 2-MMC is extreamly stimulating, more so than any other stimulant I have tried, movement becomes much faster than ordinary like a caricature of stimulant abuse
I go to meet fellow drug addict who is interested in also partaking in diacetylmorphine and 2-MMC
gets pushed away at night, stays awake all night injecting more and more 2-MMC to cope before getting yelled at for making a noise
in the morning barely able to make memories, I tell the person how awful they make me feel about myself, the 2-MMC seams to supress memories nearly directly after intravenous administration
they pressure me to leave early but than continue to smoke more diacetylmorphine with me
in the afternoon they get agressive slamming the door, I shoot up once again and leave, on the way home I give myself several cleanup shoots in plain sight
at home I prepare 8 syringes each 25mg and end up using 4 of these before starting to realize that I am loosing grip on reality, hastily I grab 100mg of amisulpride from my jacket and try to force myself to sleep
at this point of my two day bindge I had ingested 2955mg of 2-MMC and 276mg of diacetylmorphine
fading to sleep I feel my body uncontrollably spasming, my deranged manic thoughts take this as a sign of something trying to take controll of me
that night I have vivid dreams in a rollercoast related open world and wake up with everything feeling new, the apartment, my counciousness, I barely piece togeher who I am and what happened the previous days, I become increadibly scared and desperate to not be alone
I start begging previous friends to see me till somebody invites me, the journey to their place seams like traveling through a new city, the sunshine and weather make it seam as if I were at a beach town, I arrive at their place and cuddle up to them, we don't talk much but they calm me till the afternoon
several times I pass out and wake up again, first experiencing 2C-B like psychedelic drifting visuals of our moving arms and enviroment, than watching myself 3rd person cuddled up to them having a seizure, tearing myself out of that space landing in a similar space still cuddled up, than having another seizure in that space before tearing myself into real conciousness, "I don't know what just happened" I shreak, seams I had not seized or made any major movements although I thought I had, I take 25mg of quatiepine and a shoot of Estradiol enantate before eating some ordered food, part of me gets paranoid that something had been put in my water... although I realize that is absurd... while I am offered to stay I leave in the late afternoon
I became increadibly scared about being changed/damaged and start skretching and crying in fear.
I felt like I had been put back into the same life but with a perception from another angle, I was horrified about the direction of my life, picking what might have been up to 100 syringes from my bed nearly made me have a panick attack, the idea of shooting up seamed alien to me, even though I knew that is what I was doing every day before this happened.
disturbing dreams follow: - a gorrila strapped into a metal sacofagous machine tearing its anatomy a part while controlled by human "scientists" - corpses being dismembered and scavanged for parts - a intravenous psychedelic experience
Submitted by 0xea
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