UserWiki:Brettmaul
Who am I?
A few facts about myself:
My Purpose
I am a self-taught and experienced user of deliriant and dissociative type hallucinogenics who strives to share my personal experiences, knowledge and insight with all other people of the earth. Paradoxically, my early use of psychoactive substances in a dangerous and ignorant manner transformed me long ago, into a knowledgeable individual who craves knowledge and strongly advocates for the safe and informed use of psychoactive substances in order to advance cognitive awareness and develop self-awareness. I still actively engage in the consumption of psychoactive substances myself.
My First Drug/My First Trip
The first drug I consumed was Dexedrine IR from the ages of 5 to 11, as part of a therapeutic dosing regimen to treat my condition of ADHD. At the time this article was created, I was 20 years old and still had the condition of Adult ADHD, which will almost certainly affect me my entire life.
The first drug I ever consumed with the intention of getting a 'high' or using recreationally was Diphenhydramine, about 600 mg.
My Personal Strengths/ Interesting facts
My first 10 or so recreational experiences were with high doses of Diphenhydramine, until finally expanding my experiences to other drugs that weren't deliriants. I never used a tripsitter, and although that was an extremely unadvisable thing to do, I learned to control my responses to the terrifying effects of Diphenhydramine. Having been born into the expansive world of psychoactives under the chilling and fearful grasp of a Deliriant, I possess the ability to talk myself down from bad trips or fearful hallucinations, and grasp an extraordinary sense of self-control. I am not invulnerable to the convincing qualities of deliriants or other hallucinogens, but simply retain the ability to remain static in my physical trip-space with the help of an anchor.
I do not have an inherent susceptibility to nausea or memory suppression; When drinking alcohol, I will remember every detail of the experience. I will fall down and pass asleep much faster than I can have a chance to drink enough to get nauseous. Even after the life-changing experience of 4mg Xanax and 1600mg Dimenhydrinate that caused me to forever dedicate myself to responsible use and helping others, I still remembered most of the embarrassingly public experience. DXM will still only cause minimal memory suppression even at the 3rd plateau. 2nd plateau will never give me nausea, but interestingly 3rd plateau will always induce vomiting even if I take an antiemetic meant to treat nausea. Chewing on a strong trip's worth of morning glory seeds did not give me any hint of nausea.
What have I done?
Here below are a few sections explaining what I've done, how much, and where I've done it.
Substances Used, Extensiveness
- DXM- My personal all-time favourite, DXM stands as the substance that I have the most extensive knowledge about. I have done countless trips ranging from the 1st to 3rd plateau. Why haven't I done the 4th yet, then? I simply have not felt ready for it yet. It has not yet called my name.
- Dextroamphetamine (Dexedrine)- I was previously given daily doses from the ages of 5 to 11 for the treatment of my ADHD. Since my first year of university when I was 18, I have used Dexedrine numerous times in a recreational context in order to enhance my enjoyment of activities and to encourage mental clarity when working on projects. I'm no stranger to the comedown, and once took so much that I entered an amphetamine psychosis.
- Diphenhydramine- My first recreational drug, Diphenhydramine ushered me into the world of psychonautics with the most relatively unpleasant effects and experiences. I did genuinely enjoy the trips if they were heavy, hallucinogenic doses, but have since largely moved away from deliriants after discovering better, more pleasant drugs. I still very occasionally use Diphenhydramine a couple of weeks before using another hallucinogenic drug in order to temper my self-control and cognitive endurance.
- Dimenhyrinate- Once recreationally, during a massive bad trip. Numerous times therapeutically to reduce the effects of nausea on DXM and other nausea inducing drugs.
- Cannabis- Numerous, but sporadic experiences. I find Cannabis by itself to be entertaining and enjoyable, but have yet to document an extremely interesting and expansive trip (Although the potential is definitely there- In addition, I want to try the Cannabis-DXM combination.)
- MXP- A couple times after acquiring a bag of it from an RC vendor. I found it to be pleasant, comparable to the depth and clarity of 2nd plateau DXM combined with the effects of a heavy Nitrous dose.
- Alcohol- So. Many. Parties.
- 3-FPM- An RC vendor-acquired stimulant. Inhaled as a powder, it burns the nose with sharp and short intensity and provides a gentle experience slightly less intense than Dexedrine with an almost non-existent comedown.
- Gabapentin- Numerous times, taken for it's subjectively intense anxiolytic, motivation enhancing, and body high inducing effects.
- Psilocin mushrooms-Once. A light, but incredibly euphoric trip. Not heavy enough to induce significant outrospection.
- Adderall- Taken once, before my reacquisition of Dexedrine. Like Dexedrine, but noticeably less 'clean' and euphoric.
- Morning Glory Seeds- Taken a few times. Greatly improved cognitive flow and connectivity.
- Nicotine- Countless times. Via smoking, vaping and replacement therapy. I started on nicotine gum, actually. I have a massive tolerance, as I can consume numerous 4mg Nicorette lozenges back-to-back with no ill effects.
- Caffeine- All my adult life.
- Sleep deprivation- Many times, longest being 78 hours.
- Xanax- Numerous times for recreational properties, once contributing to a massive bad trip that changed my thinking about psychoactive substances.
- Ativan- A couple times from someone else as a method of controlling acute anxiety attacks.
- Oxycodone- One bottle over a week. It was very euphoric and enjoyable, running out with no chance of re-acquisition. Never taken again.
- Tramadol- Very light dose for mild pain regulation, slightly euphoric.
- T3s
- Nitrous Oxide
- Kratom
Publications
Among the more numerous of my publications are experience reports, with a scientific paper and research document accompanying them.
- "One Comfortable Stimulant"- Bmorgs. "One Comfortable Stimulant: An Experience with 3F-Phenmetrazine, Nicotine & Sleep Deprivation (ID 108162)". Erowid.org. Mar 23, 2016. erowid.org/exp/108162
- "Like a Television Show"- Bmorgs. "Like a Television Show: An Experience with Methoxphenidine (ID 108294)". Erowid.org. Jun 5, 2016. erowid.org/exp/108294
- "Worthy to Compare to DXM"- Bmorgs. "Worthy to Compare to DXM: An Experience with Methoxphenidine (ID 108188)". Erowid.org. Apr 11, 2016. erowid.org/exp/108188
- "Green Tea: Benefits and Rewards"- A paper-based scientific paper describing the health benefits of consuming green tea.
- "Neurotransmitters and the Interconnecting Web"- Paper based research topic theorizing upon the inter-dependence of neurotransmitter levels in the brain.
Tripsits
- MXP
- DXM
- Dextroamphetamine