Experience:Creative Bliss

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Marijuana / Blue Dream -- Moderate Dosages

I've been wanting to write for years now. When I look at NetherWiki I see I started working on it since 2015. I heard a lot of people have a harm time coming up with eyes, but my problem is trying to write them down. I'm far too self-critical, and stalling for too long always makes me lose sight of the excitement I originally had for the idea. So this may sound sort of silly, but weed really changed my life for the better.

I'm very creative while high. It's a double edged sword really. When I try to meditate (samatha style) while high, and really be aware of my thoughts, something interesting happens. My thoughts become much more abstract, seemingly constantly shifting frames of reference while connecting ideas from normally (to me at least) distinct domains of knowledge (but maybe I'm full of shit on that last part). But on the other hand I'm more inebriated, and the effect isn't nearly as prominent as it is on LSD or a heavier psychedelic. My thoughts seem to become 'elongated', and very fleeting. I often times feel like I have a good epiphany only to forget it later, like I begin forgetting the thought almost as soon as it finishes. But if I loop the thought in my mind long enough to get it down on paper, it usually turns out to be something pretty profound. Or at least a very detailed plot thread for my writing.

I'm not just more creative, but the part of me that is too self-critical to write a rough draft is stifled. The soothing effects of marijuana help me focus and just get things down. And they're usually not half-bad, if not a little inebriated. The downside is that other aspects of my cognition are significantly decreased, but at least I haven't found myself going delusional. Someone please let me know if that happens.